Unchanging Waves

I know they're gone
I know they're never coming back
Or do I?

It seems
Like every day
I  have to discover it anew

I dream
And they're there
No explanation
I accept it

Then I wake
And realize they're gone
And it's not just for today
It's for always

Something happens
Something good
And I reach for the phone to call them
And then I stop myself

I knew it would be hard
I knew I would miss them
I just wasn't prepared

For it to be like this
All the time
Every single day